Could this be it?
September 29, 2010
It’s been awhile since my last post. Ever since finding out that I would hear from PC by the end of the month I just sort of let myself forget about it. I’ve learned that there is no use stewing about it and freaking out about it because I have no control over it. It’s funny how as soon as you let things go, things start moving forward.
Just last night I was talking to my best friend and he asked what I was going to do about the whole PC thing. He asked because things have been moving in such a great direction with my new job that he knew I would be going back and forth about what to do … stay in this job or serve in PC?
I told him I didn’t know and that I wouldn’t know for awhile. That is the truth. I’m loving my job, but I have absolutely no idea where that job is going to take me. It could be an awesome experience for years to come or it could be a few months and then I’m let go … I have no idea.
I also have no idea about PC. I could receive an invite and it could be January or February or March … or, I could not receive an invite at all. I have no idea.
So, why make decisions now about things you don’t have any info on? What’s what I told him. That’s what I truly believed … last night.
Well, today I got an email from a PO (different from the one I’ve been speaking with) with a list of exit interview questions. I emailed her my responses and figure that this is pretty much it. She will either give me an invite or she wont. There isn’t much more in the process.
I now really do have a decision to make. Right when I set both things aside to just go with the flow I now actually have to face the options.
All I keep coming back to is, what if I say yes to PC and then realize a few months from now that I just cannot give up this job opportunity, even for something as amazing as PC? Does it make me a horrible person if I then decline an invite I already accepted? Is that even an option? How do I now make this decision (if an invite does come) potentially six months in advance? I was expecting 6 weeks, but 6 months is a long time for my situation to change …
Awaiting a response to my email … potentially in the form of an invite … I guess we’ll see.