Disappointment and the Unknown
August 24, 2010
Today has been a rough day.
Today was the final day to be invited to my current nomination … and I didn’t get a call. I kept my phone with me all day, checked it compulsively as always, wondering if I just didn’t hear it ring … but it never did. It’s 1:50pm and the office closes in 10 minutes. No call.
What does that mean for me?
Well, first it means I probably didn’t get invited to the Pacific Islands. There is still a small chance as I know sometimes they break the 6-week rule … and my placement officer was out of the office until today and may just be running behind … but it also could mean I just wasn’t invited.
I’m strangely more disappointed about that than I thought I would be. I am happy going anywhere in the world, but having that nomination in my head the last three months has created a picture of my future PC experience and letting that go is difficult.
It also means that if I wasn’t invited to the Pacific Islands, my options are completely unknown now, and completely up in the air. Are they going to place me somewhere else? Am I going to leave soon, a few months, next year? I don’t have any idea … and that scares me.
I know that I’m qualified. I have an undergraduate degree in English education, four years in the classroom, a Masters in Educational Technology, and 12 years of coaching and organizational work. What I’m worried about is my medical accommodation. They’ve given me no information as to how much that restricts me. Are only a few countries off the list? Or dozens?
Where do I go from here?
I still have hope. My medical assistant told me if I didn’t hear from her by the end of the week to give her a call. I’ll obviously be doing that … and I’m still hopefully that maybe that means my officer is just behind or that they will have found something else for me. Crossing my fingers …