Bracing for Rejection …
July 2, 2010
***See latest posts for updates … have been medically cleared with accommodations!!***
So I just posted earlier today about my Toolkit update saying “Peace Corps sent you an important letter regarding the status of your medical review”. I have been thinking about it all day, mainly because I probably won’t receive the letter until at least Thursday of next week and I hate waiting (I’m on the west coast, takes 3 days for mail to get here from DC, and it’s a holiday weekend).
In the mean time, because of ALL the extensive information regarding Peace Corps on the web, I decided to Google the sentence above to see if anyone else posted about receiving the same message … I received about five response … each and every one of them ended with a rejection. That led me to a number of questions.
1) Why would mine me any different? If that seems to be the standard for negative outcomes of the medical process, why would mine be different from anyone else’s? There were no positive outcomes on the blogs … why expect other results?
2) What else could it possibly mean? They received my medical packet yesterday … they made a decision today. I’m sure it doesn’t take long to review a file, but wouldn’t it have moved to Complete if I was Cleared? And wouldn’t it move to Hold if there were more things to fill out? All it says is that a letter was sent to me and be checking my mail … I’m sure that’s the nice way of saying REJECTED without actually posting that on Toolkit.
3) What the hell could POSSIBLY be so wrong with me that I was denied? I have two issues that it could possibly be … I have a history of anxiety, but haven’t had an attack in nearly five years. I’m not on any medication and haven’t been for years … and my therapist review was STELLAR. She said she STRONGLY supports my decision and thinks I would thrive. How can they say no to that? Secondly is my abnormal paps. I have the lowest possible HPV diagnosis and my doctor specifically wrote that I can go 12 months without any tests with no risks … all I would need at the 12 month mark is an HPV test. She even said that she would clear me to go the 15 months actually required (with training) … she didn’t write that (only the 12 months) but I don’t think that would be means to reject me straight off the bat.
I know I shouldn’t base my expectations of what that post means by what I found on five blogs … but it’s difficult not to. I honestly don’t see how it could be anything else …
And I hate that I won’t actually know for at least another week.